My birthday is thursday and quite honestly i don’t remember a year in my life where i didn’t care that much about it. I don’t want to celebrate it, i really don’t care and it’s scaring me a little. I’ve been feeling alone and blue for almost a year now and i have absolutely no idea what to do.
I’m angry at myself because i’m not doing anything with my life but i’m terrified of going outside and talking to strangers. I’m living with my parents, i don’t have a job, i hardly see my friends and well, i have no bloody idea what i want.
Most mornings i don’t even want to get out of bed because i have nothing to make me want to get up. I’m feeling lonely a lot and it’s not something that i should feel. I wanted to rant here because i can’t talk to anybody in my life, because they would all be judgemental and telling what i should do, like i already didn’t know that.
I don’t want to be alone anymore, i don’t want to feel sad and like i’m worth nothing. The only good moments i have is when i fangirl here and read fanfictions, and i think it’s kind of pathetic, maybe? I don’t know.
Anyway, i needed to rant and let it go of my chest so there.
so apparently the risk management people at my university have told my political science professor that his tardis door is in violation of blah blah blah because “people might think police are actually available in his office”
okay, tamuc. okay.
y’all omfg i am so done. i went by his office this morning and he’s added all of this to his bulletin board: